Help Me Escape from Persecution and Family Abuse

Sorrow is what I feel more often than I take a breath.  This is how I have felt for years.  Pain radiates from my soul and my dignity is wounded and constantly stabbed by the cruelty and unbearable treatment.  I don't even know which pain is worse...physical or mental.  I am unfortunate to be familiar with a wide spectrum of both of them.  Soon that spectrum will expand, and I fear that I will not be able to bear it.

I do not posses the strength to write every detail of my story here.  Each word stirs discomfort and soreness by evoking miserable memories.  Flashing ,cruel scenes, throwing me into the same state of mind that I had when as a child.  Times when I had been frequently detained in my room by my own parents for days, without food or sunlight.  No one seemed to care about my screams or panic attacks until I passed out and they could no longer ignore me.

The memories of my own brother grabbing my hair, dragging me throughout the house.  In another memory, I lay in my room, locked again, but this time kicked and beaten so severely that I did not possess the power to scream out loud, so I only screamed inwardly.   Another time, my hand had been burned by boiled water spattered from a kettle, which had been flung in my direction, although they were trying to hit my face.

I remember the pain after one of my students patted me gently from behind during class. What the child did not know was that just two days before, their teacher had been beaten by a stick and my whole back was covered by bruises and blisters. I am alone among people; obligated to follow unbearable orders without questioning.

This is my reality, which may be reversed with your help.

Regardless of all unfavorable circumstances that I have struggled with for my whole life, I have attained an education and developed awareness of the fact that I am valuable and worth trying to take a risk to save myself. No one among my oppressors is able to blur that awareness anymore.

That's why I am asking you for your help. Collecting funds is necessary for my escape plan, which has been arranged by myself and a group of good-willed people who have supported me for many months, some for years.  Time is up, I have to leave home for freedom from this patriarchal control and pursue my education and a life where I am able to make my own decisions.